Goosebumps Running Down My Spine ...

It was the oddest feeling. An eerie feeling. A bad feeling. A good feeling. A painful feeling. A relieving feeling. Perhaps, just a feeling. 

I was making Mac n Cheese. Lame, I know. But as I was standing there, I turned on a slow, acoustic song by Never Shout Never. Immediately, my mind soared off into the space that is my random mind. Every thought that I could possibly think raced through my mind.

Every thought I'd thought today. Everything I've thought in the past few days. Few weeks. Few months. Everything. I couldn't control my mind. I just thought. 

Every feeling I've felt today. The anger. The happiness. The peacefulness. The frustration. The confusion. The amusement. The irritation. All of it. I felt all those feelings at once.

It might seem impossible. I don't care, really. It happened. It may not have been "all at once" like I said, but it felt just like that. As if every thought and emotion was hitting me at once.

And as that happened, the most horrible, eerie, insane, weird, great, relieving, releasing feeling happened to me. Goosebumps. I guess it's technically called "chills", but I saw the goosebumps as I felt the chills. They ran down my spine. From there, spread out throughout my body like brances. My body was a tree. The spine the truck. My arms, legs, neck, fingers, toes, etc. their each, own, individual branch. The goosebumps spread all over. And just as fast as they came, they receeded. 

Then the feeling was over. As fast as it came, it was gone. And I realized that I wanted to say, "Fuck it all." So I am. Fuck it all. I'm going to be HAPPY.